Below is a post from a ministry partner, Leigh Gray at Speaking Thru Me Ministries. Awesome thoughts! Thanks Leigh for letting me share your thoughts here.
What is God asking you to do right now? I don’t mean if God has ever asked you to do something, I mean right now He is asking something of you – Are you listening? God always wants to engage us in things that He is involved in. Are you willing to respond and think big?
The line of questioning above reminds me of the time Jesus asked the disciples to feed the 5000. On this occasion Jesus and his guys had been ministering all day and were ready to retreat. They asked Jesus to make the crowd go away. Jesus replied with an odd statement and probably very frustrating to the the disciples, “You give them something to eat.” Jesus was not solving the problem, but giving the disciples even more to do. He was engaging them – big time!
Coming from Charlotte, NC we had every conference under the sun not only come to the city, but most of the conferences came to my big church. It was not uncommon at all for me to go to each and every event – I LOVED it. I would always come home with so much excitement and energy. But it was one of those things that unless you are there it was too difficult to explain. No matter how dramatic I got with Clay he just didn’t feel it the way I did at that time. Bummer!
It was not long after moving to Southern Illinois that I began to thirst and starve for that kind of ministering again. And then the Lord asked something of me. I was at a Mark Schultz concert down in Marion and as I stood up to look around the Lord whispered in my heart, “Bring it here – men and women alike.” Over time He revealed not just a music concert, but speakers and worship for both the man and woman at the same time. Not a marriage conference at all, but a worship/ministering conference for both of all ages. Something for the area of Southern Illinois that doesn’t make us drive to St. Louis, Indy, Chicago, or Louisville. The impulse girl that I am said, “Sure thing Lord, I would love to do that.” Then the fear began to set in.
As the disciples began to pass out all they had, 5 loaves and 2 fishes, I am sure the fear began to set in. “What happens when we get to the sixth person? What happens when I can not feed a baby? What happens when i run out? What if more people come up?” I think there was fear there as well even though they had seen Jesus work all the miracles not only that day, but throughout His ministry.
In verse 16 of Luke 9 Jesus gave thanks and then gave the food to the disciples to let them be engaged in the miracle happening. Jesus could have multiplied the food immediately, but instead He gave the food to them to see and feel with their own eyes and hands all He was doing. It was if He was saying, “Come on guys, take part, be engaged, think bigger, and trust Me.”
After feeding everyone I believe it to be no coincidence that there was 12 baskets leftover for each of the disciple. When we give of everything, even a heart lacking in faith, He still faithfully provides filling us in unimaginable ways!
Speaking Thru Me Ministries has just been granted 501(c) tax exempt status. That means that we are able to take donations and give the donor a tax benefit. Yeah!! But having said that we have little to nothing in the pot to speak of. If you remember correctly our speakers take no kind of speaking fee. I would say we have even less than 5 loaves and 2 fish. Nevertheless God has given me this story today to encourage me that He will provide in abundance.
September 2009 I have rented the Marion Civic Center for a conference for men and women. I have already booked Curtis Jones, Beth Moore’s son in law, to speak. I am working on the worship leader and a few more speakers. Priscilla Shirer has already gracefully declined. So I continue to reach my hand in the basket to pull out more and more loaves and fishes. Every time I begin to panic – will anyone show up – how will i ever pay for all this – what if my speakers cancel at the last minute – how is this different than anything else – I reach my hand once again in the basket and He provides…scripture, cards from friends, emails from family, holy nudges!!
So, what is it for you today? What is He calling for in your life that you should be engaged and think bigger? Can you hear Him? Have you taken the time to sit before Him today? Listen to the voice of the Savior! Keep digging for more loaves and fish!! It is there!!! He is there!
God is SO amazing!