As I shared yesterday when God whispered “You are my child. Follow Me.” a hush came over me. It was comforting. Warming. Calming. The questions quieted.
Why do I complicate it so? God answered it plain and simple. I’m HIS child. The visual of a parent saying “follow me” to their child floods my mind. A parent who leads their child to only the best for them. A parent who expects their child to have faith in them. A parent who longs for their child to listen to them and not their friends or the world. A parent who is honored by the obedience of their child.
But the questions still came. If I’m to follow walking, obeying, and listening to Him and not the world then why does my heart stray? Could it be because I look at your journey and it looks more appealing? Your writing is more captivating? Your ministry is more productive? And still yet, could it be I’m tired of my own course? If I’m really following God would my heart be asking all these questions every 300 days?
And yet more? Do I need a planned direction? Should I pursue to enrich myself and hone the gifts He gave me? If I’m to follow Him, then why does setting goals, looking back or looking ahead make any difference? Does planning mean I’m following my own path and not His?
As I yearned for more of God and His direction I was made aware in God Calling that I’m asking the wrong question. Maybe instead of “who am I”, I should be asking “Lord, who are you?”
“Do not try to find answers to the mysteries of the world. Learn to know Me more and more, and in that knowledge you will have all the answers you need here, and when you see Me face to face, in that purely spiritual world, you will find no need to ask. There again all your answers will be in me.” God Calling
If I’m asking, “Lord, who are you”, then all of my answers will be in Him. As I wake up each morning and seek Him I will get the answers as how to best follow Him. And what I’m experiencing is God only answers with directions for that day. He will give you a days worth of marching orders. Maybe some days those orders to follow Him will be inline with your planned goals and dreams, while others days He might send you on an adventure to something He needs accomplished. The verse in Romans 8:15 MSG says it perfectly:
“This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What‘s next, Papa?” God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children.”
Does living on purpose matter? YES! As long as it’s God’s purpose.
Does setting goals make a difference? YES! But don’t lose track of God in the pursuit of them.
Is it alright to ask “who am I?” YES! But it’s more important to ask, “Lord, who are you?”
Will we have all our questions answered? No! But we know who we are!
I am sorry for the blank spaces of white and changed font. Blogger and I are not getting along today.
But that’s OK because I know who I am!