What do you fear? Come on now, be honest.
There are so many fears that try to attach themselves to us and here on Tuesday’s we talk about stepping over them. We challenge each other to step out and in to the world unknown. Yes, that’s scary but it’s essential.
Not all fears seem as monumental as:
reaching out to the homeless
going to the top of the Empire State building
interviewing for that job you want
Some fears are hidden and lay silent deep within our heart.
I walked in to an office and the news was streaming “Joan Rivers has died.” It stopped me in my tracks. No matter what you thought about the woman, she made me laugh and think. Her wit was fast, but yet there were always morsels that left you pondering something she had articulated.
As the sad news lingered on the screen they began showing old clips. Joan as the comedian. Joan in the early years. Joan on talk shows.
In one segment, she was being interviewed and being real. The news person asked, “What do you fear?”
Joan answers quick, “This is what I fear!”
She holds up a calendar page that is blank. Nothing written on it. No appointments or events scheduled. “This is what I fear. When my calendar is blank it means that I’m no longer needed. No longer making a difference. No longer of value to others.”
My heart could feel hers in that moment. I long to make a difference too.
And in the quest to make a difference there were days that I put so much on my calendar that it was a blur. Actually the day ended up becoming a mess. I’ve had to learn that there has to be a balance. And just because something will make a difference, does not make it my difference to make.
Learning how to say yes to the right things has been a challenge for me. There are so many great things that can fill our calendars, but yet when it’s the wrong yes that we’ve added we end up stressed. Stressed people usually do not make a difference.
I don’t want my calendar to lie flat with blank days and hours. Truthfully, I fear not making a difference just as Joan Rivers had so perfectly described. I know that sounds crazy, but I want to leave a mark on this world too.
So while I’m not fearful of heights or interviews, I am afraid that my life will not be of value to others.
What about you?
QUESTION: What are those fears that linger in the back of your mind just pestering at you day in and day out?