Today marks the day that I quit. I’m tired, worn and weary. The fight isn’t worth it any longer. I’ve had enough!
You’ve probably seen it coming for awhile. The lack of inconsistency, the tired look upon my face, and the overall lack of enthusiasm in my life. So I’m sure this isn’t taking you by surprise.
Persevering is hard.
The every day grind of hoping for something when you can’t see it wears on the soul. And if that isn’t enough the comments and discouragement from others suffocate like a dark veil thrown over your dream.
But at some point, isn’t it alright to give up?
At some point, can’t you get away with saying, “Enough already?”
On your worst day, isn’t quitting allowed so that you can live a normal life?
Quitting it is.
I will no longer have sleepless nights praying for babies I wish I could cradle and keep.
I will no longer cry in the dark of night as rain pours knowing that my friends have not a roof over their head.
I will no longer walk around with a broken heart.
I will no longer look to the street corners to help ladies caught up in the bondage of sexual exploitation.
I will no longer think of others day in and day out, but will begin to think of me and my family more.
I will no longer receive late night calls from girls in trouble and sleep will again prevail.
Yes, I quit. I no longer want to be bothered. So I quit on my dream, my calling, and my purpose. Quit!
It’s not easy.
April Fool’s!! I’m sorry, but I had to do it. I think many of us have felt this way . . . and maybe even often.
The truth is, I’m not quitting. But I have to be honest — the past month has been hard and the crazy thoughts of quitting have darted in and out of my soul. And as I entertain those silent thoughts, my heart pounds.
My heart pounds and tears fall even as I write out this silly April Fool’s joke, because I know I can’t quit. For me quitting is not an option!
There are lives at stake. There are people to love. There are people who need God’s grace, mercy, and redemption. There are people who need Jesus.
Quitting is not easy as easy as it looks, if you’re called to be a difference-maker . . . a world-changer.
Don’t follow through.
The word quit itself will haunt you. Your mind will crave it, your heart will think it can’t bare another burden and need to, and your body will tell you you can’t go further. But don’t entertain those thoughts! Thinking about quitting randomly along your journey is natural, just don’t follow through.
Your soul will be tormented in this in-betweenness, of wanting to quit but knowing you can’t. So alleviate those paralyzing thoughts quickly and remember . . .
There’s no quitting when you’ve been called, chosen, and purposed to help others.
Happy April Fool’s Day!
By the way, have you felt like quitting lately?