I’ve been wondering lately why in the world I blog. I’m not sure if any of you other bloggers ask that question quite as often as I do, but I’ve really been struggling with this.
Actually, there is a lot I’ve been struggling with in my mind, heart, and soul. So – Readers beware — I’ve decided to capture some of this journey on my blog. I’m going to share and not ask – is anyone going to read this, does anyone care, why should I share this, what does this matter? Nope, I’m sharing this journey for me.
I often teach that there is something about putting our thoughts down in written word that helps bring clarity. It is that clarity and understanding that I am longing for. So . . .
Years ago when God snatched me by the collar when I was reading His Word, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt He was speaking to me and calling me to be more like Him. He continually used a verse in Isaiah 61 to confirm this. First, He gripped my heart with His Word, then in the most off the wall ways people would speak that scripture into my life or pray it over me. I found the confirmations most assuring, however, there was that uneasiness of what this meant in my life. Uncomfortable.
The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.
As I reflect on this journey in hopes to bring understanding into my life today, it seems as if I’ve traveled full circle. I spend days wondering, Did I miss it, Lord? Has my life become so self-centered that I’ve totally missed the boat? How can I be back in the spot where I began?
Lord, I am selfish – please forgive me. Change my heart. Thank you for this journey with You. I thank you for the journey ahead, even though the unknown seems scary and uncomfortable. Thank you, Lord, for loving me – the goofball that I am! Amen.