I’m not sure exactly what you are. I don’t know if you’re just a bad decision people keep making; that I made, but you’re cold.
My dad died when I was one so I don’t really remember him. My mom remarried and I remember her telling me we were moving to Houston to be with my aunt. My sister and I wanted to visit him; he was the only father we knew. We did a couple times. No phone calls. No reaching out on his part. I was 6 years old. I was confused. No explanation given.
Mom remarries. I remember my mom telling me she was divorcing again. As my sister and I sat there crying with my mom, I watched him pick up his bowling ball, look at us and walk out to go to his bowling tournament.
Mom remarries. I remember my mom telling me she was divorcing again and I never got an answer why, just that she was no longer married to this man we barely knew. Cold.
Mom remarries. I remember my mom telling me she was divorcing again with no real explanation and that she was moving to Tennessee. My sister and I had graduated high school already and were living in an apartment together. Worried about mom. Confused.
I was scared to death to go through divorce. Was proposed to. Took me a week to respond with an answer. I said yes. Called it off the night before the wedding. Got back together in 6 months. Got married by Justice of the Peace. Divorced 10 years later. Lustful marriage.
Then, I got involved in serving at church.
Renewed my relationship with Christ, making Him first. Got involved in a singles life group. Met my now husband two years later and married 9 months later. Honored God throughout our courtship. Blessed beyond measure. No more divorce.
Wholeness in Christ. Wholeness in myself. Forgiveness to my mom and the men that rejected us. Christ was rejected. I’ve learned a lot about love and marriage. I want to give better, love better, serve better, and laugh harder!
Praise God for it all.
Your words describing divorce are breath-taking! As a child, I’m sure your views and thoughts were skewed as you witnessed much love and separation. What a true testimony for you to rise above – to realize your wholeness and life comes from Christ. Cold is a lonely place to be — hallelujah, you found forgiveness and love that causes you to live, serve, and love better.
Have you struggled with divorce? Does your heart still view the act as a cold-lonely place? If so, hear anonymous and the truth — when she chased Jesus and made Him number one then her life changed. Oh how I wish the same for you!
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