Who am I? What am I suppose to be doing? Which path do I take? Whose team am I on?
If you’ve visited this blog much you know we look at these questions often, as it seems to be a way of life for me. As Positively Alene was born, I was seeking and searching to know the answers to those questions, and the meaning of my life. And here I am today wondering, if . . .
Any one else is asking those same questions?
After years of important questions racing through my mind —
who am I
what am I supposed to do
what am I good at
do I have a specific purpose
— it seems the battle still rages on. The battle between my purpose and the Lord’s purpose.
There’s the purpose that wants to seek the Lord wholeheartedly and be about His business, not caring what others might think. That purpose wants to be so assured that what it does will make a difference for the Kingdom. That purpose longs to give it all up and serve others. But then . . .
Oh wait, there’s that purpose that seeks success, big numbers (counts, followers, friends), lots of money and a name for itself. That purpose that gets lost in the you can have it all and do it all mode of thinking. That purpose that wants it to be all about me. me. me. me.
I’m sure the Lord is asking me, “Whose team are you on, girl?”
So, as the battle rages on, I’m learning a few things. We’ll talk more tomorrow.
For now, how about you? Do you feel a battle raging?
What are your thoughts about the quarrel of two purposes?
Please do tell me I’m not the only crazy one!
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